allergic to bullshit.

The last thing I ever wanted was for Zach and I to not talk and to go back like strangers. I didn't want to drift apart and not even look at each other during school. Well that's how it is now. Last week he was texting like he was depressed and we had to kind of annoying conversations when one person says short answers. It seemed like he was really pissed off so every day I would text him and ask him what's wrong and stress myself out asking the kid what was wrong and that I was here for him. Well, I guess the reason why he was texting like that was because I was "leading him on" and "getting his hopes up". So he doesn't want to talk to me because of that. EVEN THOUGH I told him I wasn't picking either of them and we both agreed that we'd be friends. He promised we'd be friends and we'd still talk. He also promised that he'd always be here for me, and that it wouldn't be awkward again... Yeah, well he's not here anymore, and it is awkward now. We're just like strangers, like before we met. I know it's hard for him, I understand. I just don't get how he could assure me those things, promise me, and then just act like we're nothing and he doesn't know me. He didn't have to just cut me out of his life. I don't know, call me crazy, but we meant the world to each other, now we don't talk. It's not like I don't want to talk to him, I want to so badly. But I'm just going to respect the fact that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and he doesn't want to talk to me, so I'm not. Even though that basically kills me. 

I hate school. That's all I have to say. Science is boring and goes by too slow because I'm excited for English. English is my favourite, but it goes by so quickly. Lunch is always too fast. Never enough time for a good conversation. I dread going to Geography and want to murder it's existence. French is fun and that goes by fairly fast too. Zach's being a moody one lately. He's not talking to me at all, and lol, if we are talking, it's a stupid conversation which I wish could change. But whatever, I guess this is how it's going to be from now on. 

Single Awareness Day. LOLZ.

HULLO.

So it's Valentine's Day on ... Tuesday I believe? When I was little I looked forward to this day for a long time. You know why? Because I loved every single guy in my grade and I loved putting valentine's in their paper bag. I liked the fact that there wasn't confusion about love or relationships. I liked the fact that their wasn't stress about finding a Valentine, because the day of you could just pick one in your class. I liked the fact that people never got left out because everyone was included in the Valentine's day fun. All the couples like V-Day, of course, because it's all about them. All the single people envy the girls who get roses, and who get those special chocolates for this "holiday". All the single people actually know what's up, and know what's the truth. Truth is, V-day is so overrated and is the stupidest day ever if you really think about it. Valentine's day is a day where a guy is supposed to make the biggest deal for their girlfriend. They're supposed to treat them with respect and make them feel wanted 100% of the day. That's complete bullshit because every single guy should already be doing that 365 days of the year. Not just 1 out of those days and then treat them like shit the other 364.