allergic to bullshit.

The last thing I ever wanted was for Zach and I to not talk and to go back like strangers. I didn't want to drift apart and not even look at each other during school. Well that's how it is now. Last week he was texting like he was depressed and we had to kind of annoying conversations when one person says short answers. It seemed like he was really pissed off so every day I would text him and ask him what's wrong and stress myself out asking the kid what was wrong and that I was here for him. Well, I guess the reason why he was texting like that was because I was "leading him on" and "getting his hopes up". So he doesn't want to talk to me because of that. EVEN THOUGH I told him I wasn't picking either of them and we both agreed that we'd be friends. He promised we'd be friends and we'd still talk. He also promised that he'd always be here for me, and that it wouldn't be awkward again... Yeah, well he's not here anymore, and it is awkward now. We're just like strangers, like before we met. I know it's hard for him, I understand. I just don't get how he could assure me those things, promise me, and then just act like we're nothing and he doesn't know me. He didn't have to just cut me out of his life. I don't know, call me crazy, but we meant the world to each other, now we don't talk. It's not like I don't want to talk to him, I want to so badly. But I'm just going to respect the fact that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and he doesn't want to talk to me, so I'm not. Even though that basically kills me.